Oh guys. How are you?
Here's SO HOT! And, I don't know, it's maybe the combo between the general hotness and the fact that I should have my period soon, but I feel so. goddamn. weak. Like someone pulled off a battery or something. I can't find the energy to commit to a proper study plan and I'm struggling to at least do something every day. Dis gonna end well, lol.
Anyway, I dreamed about BtVS? I dreamed that I was watching S6 again - and that's why I woke up with Michelle Branch stuck in my head - and then I was fighting in a old forum about Buffy's depression and the fact that you can't cure mental illness with "positive thoughts and candy". IDEK. But it made me remember how I raged in defense of S6, although it wasn't a perfect season and honestly they screwed up many things. Mostly Tara.
The funny thing is that, for me, it's not even her death that bothers me that much, characters can die, but her whole S6 arc as the "abused wife" that makes me go uuuugghhh. I feel so bothered by the authors' choices and I don't even hate Willow or dislike the Dark!Willow arc (Quite the opposite, in fact) But I realised that I've never talked about Tara and it's strange because in many ways she's such a relatable character for me. I too have maternal tendencies and I understand her role in the Summers family dynamic. Also, she's very popular these days thanks to Tumblr.
And although I still dont' feel much of the Tumblr-esque angle of the issue, it frustrates me that a character that was introduced in S4 and could have had a much more satisfactory story-arc - and even more mystery honestly - was somehow wasted and couldn't free herself from the abuse narrative.
Thinking about Tara depresses me.
Good afternoon, guys! How are you?
I'm bored and restless and generally too lazy to start working, so I'm waiting for the cats to show up and have my kittens fix of the day. But, as I wait for them, I'm thinking about the ranking list which always comes a bit wrong because it's hard to choose between favorite episodes of your all time favorite series and maybe I could do a post about my fave episodes?
Let's do a whole post.
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(I still haven't read that bit about doing the cut on DW. I'm so sorry!)
MY 25 ALL TIME FAVE BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER EPISODES
A very hard thing to do while ranking episodes was to choose between the ones I love. Episodes that aren't so great in terms of narrative or plot, but are significant to me as a person. And, you know, I was also thinking that I started watching this show at fourteen years old and I'm sure that sixteen me would have picked episodes like "Passion" because it was romantic and angsty enough for my teenage self and Angel was quite an object of attraction for me, at the time.
I'm almost thirty now and this show stayed with me for so many years. I've changed, I've grown and I find different meanings in the narrative that followed me and shaped these formative years. And this is where a narrative proves its greatness, because it evolves with us and it has different angles to look at in different times. My angles now - and for the last decade maybe - are mostly about Buffy and her coming at age, along with Willow and Dawn and Anya and Faith. The Buffyverse is the place where I can see myself, portrayed in different female characters.
1. The Body
2. Restless, this episode aged so well in terms of experimenting with absurd shoots and dialogues. The core characters' portrayals in their existential moment - Willow and her struggle with identity, Xander and his search for meaning, Buffy ... - are so powerful I believe one can identify with each member of the gang in different moments of his life. That makes the episode always relevant.
3. Selfless, a true masterpiece of episode IMO. I love the journey of Anya, again with the searching of her identity, sticking with each and every alias she chooses for herself and later falling in love and sticking to that alias too. The song is so beautiful, we've been blessed with the inclusion of a OMWF cameo and a retrò wig that gives as the good wife vibes - put intended. "What if I'm really nobody?" Do you ever cry?
5. Blood Ties, because it's such a wonderful Buffy & Dawn bonding episode, it makes me emotional af, and I loooove when Spike reassures Buffy when they are searching for missing Dawnie. A parallel, considered the previous fight. Spike & Buffy as concerned parents are everything ever, yes I'm a monogamous sappy spaz.
6. The Freshman, actual GPOY of yours truly.
8. After Life
10. Bargaining part I & II. "Where did I go? I was here. Here. But then I run away." I find that watching it is strangely comforting.
11. Pangs. "It's a sham with yams."
12. Living Conditions. "SHARE THIS!"
13. This Year's Girl / Who are you? Maybe my fave combo episode ever? I've always thought it was one of the scariest though, because being robbed of one's body and identity is terrible.
14. Doppelgangland, I remember - back when I had the DVDs that I lost - watching Joss' list and there was "The Wish" in his favorite episode list and I was a bit puzzled because I actually think it's a good episode but a bit overrated. It doesn't change anything in the narrative as whole. Still, if the result is this episode, I'm on board. Maybe one of the funniest Buffyverse episode ever. I love poor lost Vamp!Willow.
15. No Place Like Home, do you ever cry at the final Dawn/Buffy scene?
16. Triangle, cute ponytail Buffy comfort episode. Don't judge me!
17. I Was Made to Love You, so okay, some episodes are entirely perfect and great from start to beginning. Some are experimental and daring. This episode is neither, but it has a place in my heart because of the final scene between Buffy and the robot. So beautiful, so bittersweet. I love the fact that Buffy is more compassionate towards a potentially dangerous sexbot than his disgusting creator. I love the dialogue bit while she's sitting with April and comforting her as she dies. A great foreshadow of what's to come for Buffy, the losing of innocence, the desire to be perfect and "good" for the ones we love, Buffy's final resolution that comes right before "The Body", the episode that changed everything. "It's always darkest before dawn" and the "when life gives you lemons ..." Formative af to me.
18. Conversation with Dead People
19. Real Me, Dawnie's diary POV forever.
20. Fear, Itself
21. The Weight of the World, because I love dreamy Buffy episodes and because we have tiny Buffy flashbacks and a better look of her psyche, which actually foreshadows the S6 issues.
22. Fool For Love
23. Showtime, remember the bit about "perfect iconic scenes that represent a whole not so perfect episode"? The final shoot with Buffy rescuing Spike.
25. Tabula Rasa
And yes, there are other episodes I absolutely love and I guess episodes that define the show and its legacy (Surprise/Innocence, anyone?) But these 25 great or silly choices are home for me and all in an ideal number one spot.
I'm doing the TOP 5 MEME and, on this evening, I will answer two random questions.
itsnotmymind asks about my top 5 BtVS S6 episodes
( Here's my answer )
Since I'm waiting for my headache to go away, I will also answer to capitu TOP FIVE TROPES
(I interpreted it as "narrative tropes" in general)
( Awww, this is hard )
Hi everybody! Today I slept a lot and so I messed up my sleeping pattern. I'm going to be awake all night. Why I keep doing that? *stupid!Kiki* I'm thinking that I could keep translating Lust, my Spuffy AU. It will be a productive way to spend the night. Also I can answer two days of the meme, because yesterday I missed it.
I'm trying to compensate.
Although not everything in the article is correct. For example, lust and pride aren't the "big sins" for Dante. Lust, in fact, is a minor sin. The worst sins are betrayal and hybris (Lucifer becomes a monster and falls into the Earth because he wanted to take God's place. Also the chapter with Ulysses is very meaningful on that matter) In Dante's thelogical point of view Marty would be an "incontinent", somebody who submits his human will to material urges. Anyway it's an interesting article to read.
Hi! Today I did nothing productive (I suck) because of anxiety (I sucksucksuck) so I decided that, at least, I had to make another post for the meme. I'm feeling like I have nothing remotely interesting to say but let's try. Also: BtVS 10x01. Did anybody read it?
Surprisingly I enjoyed it a lot. Okay, maybe my opinion doesn't mean much because I always start with all the optimism in the world and then things change and plotlines become awful. I started S9 being so hopeful and then the Buffybot thing happened.
I don't want to invest too much in the comics, but at the same time I don't seem to being able to restrain my curiosity and I hope that something good happens. Plus all the Spike/Buffy interaction was so sweet. What a shipper can do about it?
My rational mind tells me that they are going to play all the cards they have (Spuffy, Bangel) to make people curious about the comics and to maintain all the shippers sides. Part of me hopes that they will not. I don't care if it sounds rude but if some Bangel romantic interlude happens after S8 I'm so going to vomit.
It's also important to see how Gage will handle Buffy's guilty feelings. I didn't mind her blaming herself in the first issue. She's Buffy, she takes responsability even when she shouldn't. What I'm concerned about is the narrative: Buffy's guilty feelings are not the truth. She can feel them but she has to handle them and understand what really happened. But if the narrative shift the blame from Angel to Buffy I'm going to be pissed off.
On a side note Rebekah Isaacs' art is so amazing - even if Faith comes out better than Buffy - but I love her touch. Finally çWç
Basically that's my take of the first issue of S10. Now meme!
( What I can say about it? )