*iz sick*

Mar. 9th, 2017 07:32 pm
kikimay: (Notice me Potter!)
Ouch, guys.

This winter is totally kicking my ass! Fourth day of flu and I'm dyiiiiin'~ ~.  I do feel much better now that I took a shower, but I have the physical strenght of a jellyfish, at the moment.

Anything interesting? Anything I could do without spending too much energy? I tried to read, but apparently it's also a "no".

(Also, I think I've came up with a weird idea for my [livejournal.com profile] hd_remix? This would maybe need some brainstorming process)
kikimay: (Glare)
Hi guys, how are you?

I'm feeling terribly tired, so I've stopped reading very early this afternoon and made myself a cup of hot chocolate. (And now I'm feeling kinda guilty for the chocolate too, because I've promised myself to lose a bit of weight this year) Anyway, so, so tired. I feel like I need to sleep for three days. I'm not getting much shit done.

In the meantime, I've got my [livejournal.com profile] hd_remix assignement, yay! I don't have the energy or time to write at the moment, but coming up with new ideas for stories? I love that! I wish there was a machine that transformed toughts in sentences without having to write them. XD (Also because, yes, [livejournal.com profile] carlyinrome I've come up with the idea for your story AGES AGO, but I still don't have the strenght to write it. *slumps*)

I think I'm going to put on my orange pyjamas and just rest a bit now.

Also, I would like to share a Tom Felton video with [livejournal.com profile] felixfvlicis, because of reasons



(THIS AESTHETIC KILLS ME)

I just needed to share it. I hope she will appreciate it.

Also, I've watched "Nocturnal Animals" by Tom Ford and ... WTF was that anyway? To be clear, the movie itself is good, very Lynchian in a way - which is terrifying for me btw - but I've seen a comment Tom Ford made about the parallels between the writer in the story and how it felt being dumped by his ex-wife and I'm like ??????????? What even???

(Basically: the movie is about Susan, super-cool art manager, played by Amy Adams. She left her first husband because of reasons we understand as we watch the movie and, after years, she was gifted with a copy of his novel, "Nocturnal Animals", dedicated to her. The book talks about kidnapping, rape and murder and ... somehow it was an expression of the pain the author felt because of being dumped? Like, ACTUAL RAPE AND MURDER = DIVORCE PAIN)

Uuuuugh, manpain is the worst.

Where are the good movies without too much angst and violence? (I'm not feeling in the mood for hard stuff these days)

*ranting*

Jan. 27th, 2017 10:33 pm
kikimay: (Glare)
Still in a crappy mood over politics.

I can't stomach the pictures of Trump on social networks anymore and it's been JUST A WEEK. How are you going to endure more? American friends, you have all my compassion. Truly.

Meanwhile, stories of domestic violence and rape where I live. I'm feeling so goddamn pessimistic about everything. Humankind sucks. And I just picked a movie that deals with gun control and lobbies, whhhyyyy.

At least, Jessica Chastain is serving looks.
kikimay: (Glare)
And, anyway, the "NO" front won the Referendum. The combination of Salvini + Grillo + the part of the Democratic Party who didn't like Renzi's leadership + the forever young, I wanna beee forever youuung Silvio are now celebrating the victory.

I don't feel like celebrating. I don't feel anything at the moment tbh, except disappointment and deep, deep pessimism.

The Boschi reform wasn't good, this Executive shouldn't have tried to test his political resistence like this, but I'm also sad because I feel like Renzi was the lesser evil in a very populist landscape. I don't know what I should pray for at the moment. I don't even know if this is good or bad, only time will tell. Now the scenery is open to President Mattarella's decision, possibily leading to another "Technical Executive". IDK, guys.

In these days, the immortal words of the great philosophe-poet Giacomo Leopardi resonates into my soul and heart. I leave here an extract of the movie "Il Giovane Favoloso", about Leopardi's live. Here we see the poet contemplating human existence and composing "La Ginestra" (The Broom Or The Flower in the Desert) which expresses so much of what I feel and believe. I leave the Italian original 'cause it's such a beautiful scene. Here the only translation/explanation I can find: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Giacomo_Leopardi#La_ginestra





And, btw, I'll be probably asked about him at the exam and what if I fail? That would be ironic!

So far the anxiety hasn't kicked (except for yesterday when I couldn't breathe) But I'm waiting for tonight and tomorrow. Also there's the LADDER PROBLEM. Wish my brain luck for real!
kikimay: (Do you like my darkness now?)
Hi guys! How are you? I hope you're enjoying the weekend.

Have you seen "Fantastic Beasts" already? Is it any good? I didn't really care about the movie (Except, maybe, for Eddie Redmayne's cute face) but the thing about exploring Dumbledore's youth was promising. And now they casted Johnny Depp as Grindelwald. Uuuuggh, nope. Anyway, let me know if I need to see this movie. Just tell me: go and see it. I trust your judgement.

I found the streaming of "Loving" with Ruth Negga and it seems a wonderful movie and I started watching but I had to stop after 10 minutes. I don't think I can deal with that kind of sadness and rage right now. (The movie narrates an interracial love story and the struggles against racism and, right at the beginning basically, the characters are arrested in the middle of the night and I was like "NOPE") Too much, at the moment. I want to see it, but I would like to be certain that there's an happy ending. I'm a coward.

In these days I'm struggling with a weird kind of anxiety, the kind that makes you feel unreal and as if you are surrounded by unreality. I don't understand why or what triggered it, but it's annoying AF. Why, brain??

And, anyway, talking about funny/silly stuff: did you see Tom Felton in "The Flash"? He looks so cute dressed as a proper gentleman and the interactions with the protagonist - who I don't even know - scream DRACO/HARRY AURORS AU. Do you think tv authors even read AO3? XD And, apparently, Tom needs to captain all the ships. Bless his soul.
kikimay: (Vengeance is what I am)
Argh! Today I woke up with a stupid headache and I'm still having it. WHYYYY ;O;

Also, I finally saw CAPTAIN AMERICA: CW and I really dislike Steve Rogers. 
kikimay: (Dark!Willow)
Hi!

I've just spent the day sleeping. I'm the worst person ever and now I don't know what to do.

Also I'm shipping terribly hard Doctor/Master. Guys, if you have/know any good fanfic just tell me. I'm having a lot of feelings here.





I always ship the wrongest most doomed couples. And I'm not even sorry.
kikimay: (If the apocalypse comes beep me)
Hi guys, anybody here?

I'm home and I'm kinda bored. My laptop is still dead, plus I should be studying again and I DO NOT WANT. *whines* I don't know what to do. I wish I had a good idea for a ficlet. These days is really hard to write something new, also because the Italian Buffy fandom is basically dead and that sucks a lot of enthusiasm and willingness to write something new. (Also the Italian fandom is very ship-centric and I'm not in that phase anymore) and I don't have the energy to keep writing The Queen, although I already know all the remaining chapters in my mind.

I'm going to watch The Killing. And I'm going to do this meme:



Pick a trope from this list and provide a fandom/pairing and I'll tell you something about the story I'd write for that combination (i.e. write a snippet from the story or write not!fic or tell you the title and summary for the story I would write)

1. genderswap
2. bodyswap
3. drunk!fic
4. huddling for warmth
5. pretending to be dating/married
6. secretly a virgin
7. amnesia
8. cross-dressing
9. forced to share a bed
10. truth or dare
11. historical AU
12. accidental-baby-acquisition
13. apocalypse fic
14. telepathy curtain fic
15. High School / College AU
16. Meet the parents


Also check out [livejournal.com profile] btvsats20in20. There are new icons and you can vote. Super-shiny icons!
kikimay: (Wants to see Spangel. With oil.)
[livejournal.com profile] ladykikuri this post is totally for you.



Shipper's life )

... And now let's wait for Sherlock! XD

(Ps: All the gifs belong to their creators. I own nothing here.)
kikimay: (Dubious Buffybot)
Since I'm worried about next week I'm posting stupid stuff over here to distract myself.

I'm still stuck with the writing and it sucks. I should probably write the BtVS/Thor crossover because Dawn and Loki should totally meet and Thor and Buffy would get along so well, I guess. It's just that lately my muse is drugged or something and while I wish to write about Loki and Thor I still don't care about the other characters of the Thor-verse that much. Thor and Loki and their fucked up relationship are my drug, but I don't know if I can take the other characters properly. It's much easier for me to write about BtVS but the muse is still unaviable. So maybe crossover. Or maybe I'll wait for Thor, the Dark World. I just hope to create something soon or I will forget how to write.

(Please, let Jane Foster be "the science woman" instead of just Thor's love interest. Please grant us much more shirtless Thor and domestic!Thor with the ponytail.)

I'm rewatching random Faith-episodes of BtVS. It's the second time that happens in a year. I'm enjoying so much the Faith-part of Buffy and my love for This year's girl and Who are you knows no boundaries. I'm thinking that maybe I really like Faith and maybe I'm resisting the love because in the past I read too much about "Faith is better than Buffy" and "Faith should be Angel's girlfriend" and that stuff put me off. Ultimately it puts me off the character A VS character B to conquer the love of character C. Also Faith/Buffy's rivalry - much like Thor and Loki's - is not about who is the best, but about differences and how they create certain dynamics.

Faith and Willow's rivalry FTW. I'm the only one who loves their conflict?

I found my first Harry Potter book! As soon as I can I will start to read it. I'm so excited about it!

The houses thing is still so fun and unclear to me. I understand that every house has a dominant characteristic like courage for Gryffindor and loyalty for Hufflepuff, but I think that most of the characters I love are too complex to be classified according to HP divisions. Like, okay, Thor is a Gryffindor and Loki is a Slytherin. But where can you put someone like Wesley? Or Willow? It gets much difficult, right? I would like to know how you would classify BtVS characters.

Is somebody watching Downton Abbey this year? There is someone who wants to rant about what happens in the 4x03 like WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?

I just ate an entire pizza and the fries. And that will explain my current mood.
kikimay: (Glare)


I'm having troubles with writing.

I want to write so bad a new story about Loki and Thor but I'm just unable to focus on a real good idea and develop it. I have hundreds of ideas and thoughts and I put them aside one by one.

The thing is that it's really difficult to bring something new to the fandom. Or at least, it is to me now and I'm suffering because writing makes things better and it's the thing that makes me feel better. On a general level I'm having trouble to find the time and the necessary inspiration to write. I put The Queen on hiatus - I want to continue and finish the (Italian) story this fall - and the BtVS fandom is just my turf. The place where I feel most comfortable and creative. I become much more capricious and volatile when I'm dealing with other fandoms. But I really like to experiment new stuff and, seriously, I'm squeeing since the last trailer so.

But, you know, there's just everything about Loki and Thor. Beautiful movie-verse fanfics that makes me cry and all the possible AUs and every possible kind of interaction. What is missing?

What I personally adore about the pairing - and that's dealt in some fanfics - is the combo warrior king + magician that Thor and Loki embody. Seriously guys, the shiny power of this combo. In a way it's the same idea behind Arthur and Merlin - if you're familiar with the English show - and why I liked them so much the first seasons (And why I shipped them and now I'm shipping Thorki) (And it also could be the same idea behind the combo Buffy + Giles/Willow) The warrior king - golden and beautiful but also dangerous and potentially destructive - can't rule without the thinker. His power is very much physical and while he commands the greatest forces of nature (or men) he also needs the ability to look foward and to see things in prospective and that's the power of knowledge. Thor can use the hammer to build the house, but Loki has to draw the project behind it.

Loki is the magician and so he's most similar thing to a scientist they have in Asgard. He experiments with different forces and he uses his intelligence more than his muscles. He's clever, shifty and curious about stuff. And magic, in Asgard, is the transcendant version of science on Earth. It's very much the thing Thor says in the first movie ("Your ancestors call it magic, but you call it science")

In a simple way is the thought: power + intelligence and knowledge is my legitimate kind of power. Being strong and ignorant is much worse than being weak and impotent.

And, of course, Loki is the bad advisor, the snake at the heir's throne. But I think he will redeem himself eventually and he will become consort king at Thor's side. *MY HEADCANON* *Marvel don't screw things up* And he'll be the perfect queen consort because he's everything Thor is not and he has miles long legs (But that's just for the private pleasure of the king)

And it just came up to me that the femslash version of Thor and Loki it's Jane/Sif.

Think about it. Fierce queen of swords + scientist extraordinaire. They could blow up the universe together and they would still be the opposite sides of the apple or whatever you wanna call it. The dynamic that makes Loki and Thor so damn attractive together.

In a way Jane is the female version of Loki - the thinker - but unlike Loki she's constructive and calm and loving. She won't use her knowledge to destroy a fly. Sif is, very clearly, the female version of Thor; very much like him, she's physically strong, brave and badass but I feel that the counterbalance - reflective/proactive - is much more interesting than similar people bonding. The same old story about opposites and stuff, you know. That's maybe why I'm on board with the Thorki thing and I don't cling with Thor/Sif even if it's canon - at least in the comics.


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