kikimay: (You Wonderful Boy)
'Cause I posted this stuff on Tumblr, so anyway!

As I was looking for new posts about my favorite Gryffindor babe Harry, I bumped into a very common critique against the “Cursed Child” plot and … I kind of want to say my opinion about that?

It seems to me that many fans are upset and disappointed by the relationship between Harry and his son Albus Severus aka = “Harry sucks as a dad!”

About that, I just want to point out that:

- While I maintain my inalienable right to ignore the Cursed Child and, generally, to ignore the whole epilogue and imagine a different future for the characters

- While I firmly believe that, even in the Cursed Child, Harry is not a bad father, but a confused and overwhelmed man trying his best and failing for different reasons …

I have to say that the only thing that actually makes sense to me about Harry’s life as “mature adult” is his failure as father figure.

Don’t mistake me: Harry is my favorite character of the saga and his heart is full of love and compassion. I don’t believe it would be hard for him to love deeply and completely another human being, especially a son.

But that’s the thing: while Harry can love, he also has a lot of unresolved trauma on his back and I think that a love so overwhelming would definetely scare him.

Especially because he doesn’t know how to parent. He didn’t have any positive model during his childhood - while being constantly abused, he also witnessed the awful parenting of Vernon and Petunia towards Dudley - and later he had only tragic and/or problematic parental figures that also fucked him up.

My boy Harry would be terrified by the very idea of being a father, IMHO. And the younger the scarier, because he didn’t have the chance and the time to work on his own issues.

What do you think about that?

Let Harry go to therapy.
kikimay: (Runs in the family)
Hi guys, how are you?

I'm good. On Sunday, I went out with my dear friend L. and Little One and we took him to the local museum. Awwww, HE WAS SO CUTE!!!!!!!!! As you probably already know, in Sicily there are many remains of the Ancient Greek culture. Helenistic Sicily was very rich in terms of exchanges and cultural landscape and we have the privilege to guard a lot of this wealth. There are so many stuff to see and, in the place where I live, the most important are related to the worship of Demeter and Kore (And Hades, obvs) because they were the agriculture deities.

So, I took Little One with me and we saw all these ancient statues of the Greek gods and, at some point, he asked me if Hades was before or after the dinosaurs. I answered that Hades was way after, since the dinosaurs were pretty much the first things ever, but he replied to me that the first thing ever had to be Jesus, "Because he was born in year zero!

Well, there's a solid logic working on there. I'll work on explaining chronology, at some point. XD

Anyway, it was fun and he's the cutest child ever. I love him so much <3333 and I love babysitting him.

On fandom matters, HD_remix has already started and I'm already behind (Ouuuch). I need to manage my free time in order to enjoy the beautiful new creations. I'm so exciteeee! And today is May 2th, the anniversary of the "Battle of Hogwarts"!

On that note ... guys, can we please not with these stupid flame wars? 

Apparently, there's a whole "situation" going on because, on this day, JKR apologized for the death of Snape. Why does she feel the need to even apologize for her writing choices is beyond me. I believe she shouldn't even address these matters. But you know, it's a free country (hers and also mine, hopefully XDD) and everyone should do whatever the hell he/she wants. 

I'm just so borderline annoyed with the black & white Tumblr logic sometimes. I don't understand how can you enjoy a work of art - a work of any kind, really - while being obsessed with some restrictive morality standards. Do you know that morality standards are a product of society during a certain time period? By moral standards, we have a lots of 1600 morality books shaming women with different sexualities or because they were more free, for example. It's a thing, go check in your History books or local library.

Now, the moral imperative seems to be enjoying and stanning only "unproblematic faves" (Ignoring that actual reality that humans are, pretty much by definition, flawed creatures) and Snape is very, very problematic.

(I can't believe I'm doing this, I don't even like Snape!)

... But what the hell are we even talking about?? 

People can like Snape! Are we having arguments about this? Of course, you can like Snape. Just as I like Draco, for example, who is a bully as a kid and a coward, or just as others can like Voldemort or Bellatrix who are pretty much freaking evil. 

It's the beauty of narrative. You can like problematic things while being safe. You don't have to share your favorite characters' beliefs, not always. Of course, it's uplifting to see a character who embodies your values and most optimist beliefs (For me, Harry is a character I would like to emulate in my RL. Or Buffy Summers. They are brave and generous, I admire that deeply) But you can also enjoy the narratives of literal pieces of shit.

Now, arguments and stuff I would like to point out:

Snape really was BRAVE. One of the bravest characters we encounter in the whole saga, where bravery is valued above all virtues. Snape tries to manipulate and lie to a goddman evil sociopath with a snake face. Someone who terrifies even his most loyal acolytes. (Lucius Malfoy was SCARED AS FUCK during the whole table scene/chapter at the Manor in DH) And, in order to accomplish that, one must have balls of steel. Let's be real here.

Now, do you find difficult to believe that Harry James Potter - Gryffindor extraordinarie and boy who sacrified himself at the age of 17 - would admire and even celebrate this bravery? Once again, he values - and the author herself values - bravery above all things, because bravery requires great sacrifices and it's the hardest thing to do. Also, Harry is forgiving in his nature. He even manages to pity Voldemort during their last stand. WTF! 

I don't find hard to believe that he would admire Snape and possibly even use his first name for a son. That's Harry. 

There are cinnamon rolls too pure for this world and there are characters who manage to be both selfish and selfless at once and they have their own group of admirers. It's natural.

Do I personally like Severus Snape? NOPE. But that doesn't matter. Back off from people's imagination.

kikimay: (Dying is an art. Like everything else.)
Hi guys, how are you? Hopefully better than me, since today seems to be headache day *groans*

I'm doing the TOP 5 MEME and, on this evening, I will answer two random questions.

[ profile] itsnotmymind asks about my top 5 BtVS S6 episodes

Here's my answer )

Since I'm waiting for my headache to go away, I will also answer to [ profile] capitu TOP FIVE TROPES

(I interpreted it as "narrative tropes" in general)

Awww, this is hard )
kikimay: (Oh children)

Hi guys, how are you?

Still edgy myself. I've discovered "American Crime Story" which seems catchy and I'm gonna watch it now.

Also very ranty lately about Hogwarts Houses, Hermione Granger and Harry. I would like to share my observations with you, so maybe we can start a discussion? Or whatever you prefer.

These meta-ish observations took place at [ profile] ever_neutral's LJ, because she recommended a Tumblr about House Sorting:
The Sorting Hat Chats which is a interesting reading and an in depth analysis of the Houses. In the page I've linked, you can read the basis of this analysis and if you like metas, this is just meat for your teeth! :3

Since I was sorted in Ravenclaw at Pottermore, I was curious to see if the Tumblr definition was also fitting to my case and I've read something and my brain started working on his own.

So, in the category "Ravenclaw Primary", we can read this definition:

Ravenclaw Primaries have a constructed system that they test their decisions against before they feel comfortable calling something right. This system might be constructed by them, or it might have been taught to them as children, or it might have been discovered by them some point later in life. But it gives them a way to frame the world and a confidence in their ability to interact with it morally.

Interesting. Except that I have critical thoughts about it.

Brace yourself )

kikimay: (You Wonderful Boy)
Goodnight, guys. Actually going to bed because I've spent an interesting hour, so to speak. (Do you remember that scene with Ron throwing up slugs after the failed curse against Draco? Well, that was me a little bit earlier. Interesting times.) Also still having a hard time with family related stuff because, surprise, I've discovered that basically all my American relatives are going to vote for Donald Dick. EWWWWW. Do I have to fight with them too now? Uuugh. Humanity is being so disappointing in the past two weeks. Please, fellow American f-listers, try to turn the vote.

Anyway, I wanted to say happy birthday to Harry James Potter, that actual ray of sunshine! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧

Aww, I love this character so much, guys. And the new book is available! I don't know how to feel about that, actually. I didn't resist and I've read the super-secret-but-not-so-much spoilers about the play and I basically know everything and I'm ... huh?

I'm the in party of those who are mostly confused by JKR's choices (And also can we please keep ignoring the epilogue? I'm enjoying so many EWE fics these days. I don't want to be stopped XD)

But I've read that there's the possibility that they would change something for the definitive version of the play tonight? (Which, I don't even know if it can be done and anyway isn't the book already printed? Does that change too?)

How are you feeling, f-list? Excited for the new book or indifferent?
kikimay: (Glare)

Starting from now to the next week it will be an asskicking period of studying and stuff (Hopefully, if I can stay that productive!) And I'm feeling kinda bummed out by the idea at the moment, so why not make a pointless post on LJ? I do like to write here.

These days on Tumblr there's this very popular idea of sorting characters with different methods (zodiac, Hogwarts House and so on) One of the most popular sorting system is the Myers-Briggs test which, if I'm not mistaken, was already discussed in here.

I'm not a psychologyst, but since people make pretty gifs I think I can express my opinion. (✿╹◡╹)

And, in doing so, I'm gonna consider the core characters of my current obsession (HP) and my long lasting love (BtVS). Brace yourself.


Buffy Summers = The reason why I'm posting this, tbh. I saw a bunch of gifs categorizing Buffy as ISTP (introverted, sensing, THINKING, perceiving) Now, I can potentially agree on everything except that "thinking" part. WTFFFFFF! Which show where you watching, guys?? Buffy is absolutely and primarly ALL ABOUT FEELINGS.

She listens to her guts, she thinks that emotions are totally valid assets, she makes the most important choices following her heart and she forgives even when hurt.

Of course, she *thinks*. She's a very intelligent lady and she also has this very strong moral compass in which she needs to prevent badness from happening and it's all her responsability. But if you pick a dychotomy "feeling or thinking" and you ask me what's Buffy Summer's prevalent function, it must be feeling. Ultimately she can sacrifice herself for love.

Buffy could be either extroverted or introverted, I don't know. She clearly enjoys social situations and she has a past of being a "queen bee". But she develops a strong stoicism and the ability to bottle up her emotions. Plus, in the end she goes out with the same two people for decades! I think she could be an introverted who plays the extroverted role very well.

She's sensing - apparently means pratical. She's a very pratical person and, in battle, she often picks casual stuff to kill vampires. She's not so much for abstract thought, more like: let's see what happens and what can I do to handle the situation.

FEELING AF. Because she ultimately relates on her insticts and emotions.

Perception or judgement, IDK. Mostly because she has a strong moral compass (And that's the judgemental part, I guess) But she's also very practical, so IDK. Anyway I would say that Buffy is ISFP or ISFJ and see what happens and what Wiki tells me about these kind of people.

Incidentally, I believe that Harry James Potter is also a ISFP.

Again, all the same conclusions )

kikimay: (Glare)
So guys, how are you doing?

I really hope you're all fine and enjoying Spring (in those countries where it's Spring season, of course!) Here's already super-warm and my cherry tree is blossoming beautifully. I love it SO MUCH. There are a lot of bees buzzing near my window.

Anyway, I'm posting this because I need to express my fangirlish emotions and just rant and stuff, so if you want to skip feel free. Also, if you love Hinny and feel fond towards the pairing, I really hope you know that I consider your feelings and opinions totally valid and cool and this isn't a hating post or a bashing one. I'm just completely confused with JKR choice to create an Hinny endgame and there are stuff I personally dislike in the process and I would like to talk about those.

I'm writing a post discussing the unfairness of HP epilogue because I just read all these books and I HAVE MAJOR DISPLEASED FEELINGS AND I NEED HELP.

I would also like to point out that I generally don't like the "ANTI" word, because I feel it's kinda unfair. Like, everyone has their own OTPs and why should people prevent other people to enjoy theirs? Ship and let ship, that's my philosophy.

But I have to talk about stuff anyway. Bear with me.

I really, really don't like Harry/Ginny as endgame? I firmly believe that it's the worst HP pairing of them all (Along with Remus/Tonks) And I don't understand why JKR even thought that Ginny was "the one" for Harry and how can she being so displeased with Romione and not seeing this giant joist in front of her eyes?

First of all, what are the actual reasons between Harry's immediate love towards Ginny? It's just so unclear! He sees her with Dean Thomas and, suddenly, he wants her. WHAT THE F? And you can say: that's a believable reaction for a sixteen years old boy. I agree. Except that, eventually, even sixteen years old boys grow up and they realize that their sixteen years old love does not equal marriage.

So, yeah, first thing I don't like: 1) the whole ship seems to be based on a sudden possessiveness and jealousy, not previously motivated by anything. Like a child who wakes up one morning and realizes that his playmate took one of his toys and he just wants that back!! Ugh, NO.

Between Harry and Ginny there's no actual meaningful communication. They snog in cupboards like the teenagers they are (Fair) but they never talk about important issues or bond over similar experiences. We have a nice, intimate moment in book 5, when Ginny reminds Harry that she knows how it feels to be possessed by Voldemort, she can understand his pain, but this moment is dropped and after that there no discussions of trauma and deeper issues between them. 2) No meaningful communication, that's my second point.

Also can we talk about how much Ginny is just so under-developed? She has a huge role in the second book and she lives an experience that marks her formative years but what about dealing with the trauma and the consequences of it? File not found.

So, I honestly have problems in caring and being emotionally involved with Ginny's storyline, because for me it's just sketched and I don't know her and I can't really understand her. There's a huge gap in the narrative when it comes to her and I feel like I can understand much, much better Hermione and Luna, who are more clearly developed. I can understand so I can emphatize.

Also - and this thing confuses me to no end! - WHAT THE FUCK DOES IT MEAN THAT HARRY LIKES GINNY BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T CRY!!!!??????

It's THE WORST POSSIBLE MOTIVATION EVER! Especially for someone like Harry, who struggles with an healthy understanding of how to emote and how to handle feelings.

Let's say this clear: Harry has a disfunctional approach to emotions. (That's why I love him so much :3)

He was abused and neglected since age 1. He never had positive formative experiences until 11 and later he meets manipulative parenting figures who fuck him up. He's incredibly messed up.

Harry avoids confrontation because he doesn't understand how to handle rage. Where he grew up, expressing rage or even dislike was punished. He saw Vernon and Petunia handle aggressivity - with Dudley, for example - and that was such a freaking toxic approach to rage. Plus there are undertones of physical violence and, if not, Harry experienced A LOT of emotional violence. So, for him, of course rage is a bad thing. It's pure violence and distruction.

Harry bottles up his emotions and assumes an avoidant attitude towards rage, because he feels like "exploding" with it. And if you explode with something you can cause damage. So there's this "repression/explosion circle" which is often something people with a trauma or an abuse in their past experiance and use as a copying mechanism. And, believe me, I feel for Harry. I'm also avoidant when it comes to rage, because I feel like getting pissed is the end of the world and very, very bad of me.

(Which is something that, I think, also Willow Rosenberg experiences in dealing with hate and rage)

Harry avoids rage because that's bad and shouts down all the deepest emotions because, guys, those things are all connected. You can cry because you're angry. It's an emotional response to stress.

So, instead of picking someone who let him express this darker side and let these feelings out, which is something that can only does him good, he picks the most comforting choice: someone who doesn't cry (= express emotions, so you don't have to deal with those things) Excuse me but ... unhealthy? I feel like it's a huge, huge mistake never talking about how bad and truly harmful is not handling emotions.

And I wish kids would learn this thing I've personally learned after too much time and mistakes: you can't avoid emotions. The fuckers always come back at you! For some reasons, we just have to deal with feelings. Unfair but true.

So yes, that's my main, great, huge issue with Hinny. The motivations behind Harry's choice are completely disfunctional and yet the author doesn't seem to acknowledge that, so by default we should assume that "love works like that".

I fucking hope not.

I would also hope that even if you had the worst experiences with rage and abuse, you can find a person/people who help you engage with these feelings in a safe, healthy way. That's what Ron and Hermione do. They bicker all the time and they express rage, aggressivity and irritation, but it's like a constant table tennis match (Which is different from the abuser/abused dynamic)

My therapist often said to me that "aggression" comes from the Latin word "aggrego" which means keeping together. Basically, rage is another emotional human response that we need to express ourselves and protect ourselves, to engage. You know how Romans fought, right? They keep themselves very, very close to each other (the Roman "testudo" was the closest formation) because how can the enemy break the ranks if we are touching each other?

So communication also means "engaging" and since we are different individuals, we often engage in discussions and huge emotional gestures. Even screaming. But since Harry was raised by fucking abusers he doesn't know how to properly engage and screaming can lead to badness.

Now, here comes my trash self that sees this "engaging" process in Draco/Harry. It's rough, not remotely healthy or mature when they are in Hogwarts and so sketched, but if these idiots grow up and mature, that's a good starting point. Draco wants to be seen and wants to engage with Harry so bad.

But, if we want to be even more fair, the healthy version of this process is present in ALL the Harry/Luna interactions, in which Harry doesn't have to "avoid" anything because Luna handles trauma and sorrow in a completely different way and maybe that's the thing for him! A safe, healthy, sincere approach that's different, okay, but still safe and healthy.

I'm puzzled, you know what I mean? JKR had the perfect pairing and she went with the cliché hetero bullshit.

And speaking of heterosexuality - and I end the post here, because otherwise it's a book - why all the protagonists has to be included, in the end, in the Weasley family? WHY?

And with that I do mean = why being legally included in it (Because of course the Weasley family is everyone's family by the end of the War! These people created a bond, helped and supported each others. Molly is the truest motherly figure for Harry, along with Hermione)

But why in hell all are het, married, Weasley and parents??

It feels like we are forgetting diversity in human experience and that doesn't seem right or even true. There's more than just one type of family.

And also this thing

“I knew you wouldn't be happy unless you were hunting Voldemort. Maybe that's why I like you so much.”


She basically sees him as Harry, "the Hero who Conquered the Dark Lord", EVERYTHING HARRY DOES NOT WANT FROM THE PEOPLE CLOSE TO HIM.

(And, okay, it's much more complex than that. I'm oversimplifing the quote and, of course, Ginny admires Harry's attitute and heroism and understand his ethos. Still, if you never develop the other sides of a relationship, the only thing that stays is Ginny seeing Harry as a hero. Nothing more. And that's disappointing)

Basically, and if I may use a popular Tumblr expression, "they deserved better".
kikimay: (Buffy's smile)
I did a thing!

Buffy Summers Harry Potter Thor Odinson MCU
BRILLIANT BUT LAZY She doesn’t perform well as Willow in school, but she’s a smart and capable student Not erudite as Hermione, but talented duelist, capable of producing a Patronus charm at thirteen, youngest Seeker in a century -
CHILD SOLDIER She was 15 years old when she was called 11 years old (Arguably)
CURSED WITH GREATNESS (Aka The Chosen One) Just wants a normal life Voldemort tries to kill him since he was one year old (Not so much with the curse, he loves being a prince)
ARCHNEMESIS LOVE Spike, Angel/us, Faith (LOL, I ship him with Draco shut up) “LOKI, NOOO!”
MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES (Depression, PTSD, anger issues) Yo After book 4, he seems to be suffering of PTSD -
BIG BROTHER/SISTER INSTINCT Dawn - Keeps protecting Loki, even if he’s a murderous little shit
ABUSED Fought sexual assault more than once + more By aunt Petunia and uncle Vernon, bullied by Snape -
OUT OF CONTROL SASS “If the apocalypse comes beep me” “This is night, Diddykins. That’s what we call it when it goes all dark like this.” -
DEATH IS YOUR GIFT Twice Literally raised like a pig for the slaughter Accepts to sacrifice himself in order to stop Loki’s madness
DEAD PARENTS Joyce (S5) Since he was 1 years old Frigga (TDW)
FALLEN PRINCESS Used to be a popular cheerleader - Used to be an arrogant bratty prince
THE HERO Saves the world, a lot Saviour of the Wizarding World Avenger, protector of the Realm
GOOD IS NOT SOFT Will bash a hellgod’s fucking face with a freaking hammer until she begs to stop Crucioed Amycus Carrow so hard he slammed into a wall He looks like a huge sunshine puppy but he can become the Revenant bear
CHOSEN FAMILY The Scoobies, Dawnie Ron and Hermione, the Weasleys, the DA squad The Avengers, Jane and her science team
BLONDE HOTTIE check - check
GUILT COMPLEX Inferiority/superiority complex issues Blames himself for the people who died during the war After being banished to Earth
BERSERK BUTTON Aka anger issues and violent slayer lifestyle Where you talking ill about his parents? Try to say that shit to his face! He owns a huge hammer to bash heads with
kikimay: (I hope you picture me in your dreams)

Guys, guys, guys! A frivolous post just to talk. How are you?

Things happening:

- I'm kinda planning to improve with things I do in RL. Let's see what happens.

- I have to write another HP ficlet and I'm super-happy and excited about it! I hope that, this time, I can write about the ladies, because I've been primarly focused on Harry and Draco and there are other stuff I would like to explore and so many interesting female characters.

- I'm planning to change my icons but this project is completely destroying me. I love the icons I'm using now, especially the red Harry Potter one. And anyway I need to select icons that I feel comfortable using (Like, for some weird reason but also not since they are called "avatars", I have to pick icons that "express my emotions". So sometimes there are beautiful icons that I save, but I don't use because they don't seem to express my tiny self) [ profile] red_satin_doll What kind of icons are you planning to post very, very soon? *puppy eyes*

- It's also much more difficult, because now I have to do a BtVS/HP proportion and I have like 95834 Buffyverse icons saved on my folder.

- Harry Potter and Buffy Summers are SO ALIKE tho. I'm hyper because maybe I have a "type". Harry is also mocked by part of the fandom (especially by an Italian fanpage) because he's "whiny". I WANNA FIGHT THEIR MOTHERFUCKING ASSES.

- I'm officially headcanoning Harry as short. Partly because he's played by DanRad and I have a crush on him and everything, partly because this thing about Harry being TINY AND STRONG kills me with love. The books are never specific about his height, although when we first meet him he's smaller than the other children (Maybe because he grew up in a cupboard). But he's supposed to look like his father and James is described as "tall".

- Whatevs. SMOL!HARRY IS LOVE. Also, Draco is taller than him anyway. The canon says so! And Draco holding smol-but-powerful Harry to his chest, think about that. *dying whale noises*

- I need to buy more winter dresses because wearing trousers is stressing.

Meme time, maybe?


A - Your current OTP(s)/OT3(s)/OTX(s)
B - A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind
C - A ship you have never liked and probably never will (be nice)
D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t (again: be nice)
E - Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what
F - What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom
G - Do you remember your first OTP, if so who was in it
H - What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., tv shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)
I - Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why
J - Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr
K -Say something nice about someone in any of your fandoms
L - Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves (chars you’re neutral on are fair game, as are chars you dislike)
M - Say something genuinely nice about a ship that you don’t ship (or its shippers, or anything related to you)
N - Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice)
O - Choose a song at random, which ship or character does it remind you of
P - Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas)
Q - A ship you’ve abandoned and why
R - A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships
S - Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)
T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending, about anything at all (gender identity, sexual or romantic orientation, extended family, sexual preferences like top/bottom/switch, relationship with poetry, seriously anything)
U - 5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms
V - 3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms
W - 5 favorite ships and 5 kinks you like best for said ships
Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)
Z - Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go (prompts optional but encouraged)
kikimay: (Brain nerve and bounding heart)
Guys, my stupid laptop wants to kill me >*< I can't write properly! UUUUUGHHHH

(I'm currently using the desktop board which is annoying, believe me)

So seventh day of the snowflake challenge and I have to share a bit of canon and explain why I love it so much. If this thing keeps working I would like to share TWO pieces of canon about two of my most beloved characters ever: Harry James Potter, because I fell really hard after reading those books, and Buffy Anne Summers.

First piece of favorite canon: The forest chapter (Deathly Hallows)

You have the actual photographic proof of how much this book hurt my soul. Reading the last chapters of DH was an emotional journey and I cried my eyes out reading about Harry going to the Forbidden Forest for the last time, to let Voldemort kill him. Jesus.

It was very powerful and I think one of the best pieces of Rowling as an author. After learning the truth about his mother's death from Snape's memory, Harry decides to accept his fate in a very stoic manner and go alone towards his own death. I WILL FOREVER CRY ABOUT THIS. Mostly because, guys, he's going towards Voldemort!! The wizard he bravely fought for SEVEN mothereffing books, the wizard responsible for his parents' deaths, for Sirius' death, for all the pain and suffering he went through since AGE ONE.

And he knows that he cannot fight back - which is something that punches me right in the ovaries, he knows he cannot fight back. Harry learns the truth about Dumbledore too: how he groomed him for this, how he always planned Harry's death. And Dumbledore was his mentor and the person Harry trusted above all.

He learns the truth in the most desperate hour and he doesn't even hesitate. He doesn't stop for Ron and Hermione because he'll know he couldn't find the strenght after seeing them.

Oh Harry. He doesn't want to die. He never wanted to die. He suffered so much and lost so much (I believe he starts suffering of PTSD after the fourth book and depression in the latest two) And still wants to live but he has to do this. He has to walk to the Forest alone. AND HE'S SO BRAVE. He's only a boy and he's so so brave.


Second piece of favorite canon: Dawn/Buffy scene from No Place Like Home

DON'T TOUCH ME. I believe you all know where this scene comes from and I don't really have to explain so much. It was hard to choose a single Buffy favorite scene because there are so many and I wanted to maybe include a funny one, because the Harry Potter choice was emotionally draining but well, here you have it.

Buffy's love for Dawn is the ultimate light into my pointless existence. I just can't deal with the fact that Buffy discovers that her annoying child sister isn't real in the middle of a fucking shitstorm of idiotic boyfriends, anxiety for her mother and dangerous hell-bitches and she just accepts her. She accepts and protect and loves Dawn with all her heart, even though she's not *hers*.

I'm literally so emotional about brave and accepting heroes. I'm out.
kikimay: (Oh children)
Guys, I did it. I finally finished the Harry Potter saga! It was amazing and I cried a lot.


I'm so overwhelmed right now and maybe, when I'll organize my thoughts, I'll find something to bitch about, but right now I only feel happy. Ultimately it's such a great book on the whole and I loved the moments of absolute emotional truth in it.

I really loved the first part with Ron, Hermione and Harry on the run and I loved the deathly hallows tale. But most of all I loved the constant exploration of the moral ambiguity of the characters (Harry trying to discover Dumbledore's past, the whole deal with the Malfoys, Ron coming back to save his friends, the young students fighting) and the bonds between the characters, especially the incredible family bond between Ron, Harry and Hermione.

I adored the final connection between Voldemort and Harry, between Voldemort and Dumbledore, Harry and Draco. Parallels are my favorite thing ever. (Which makes me even more Drarry trash, because honestly)

And Harry's hero journey. I loved him most of all. Harry James Potter is my hero and my baby and I love him and admire his incredible ability to be compassionate and brave as fuck.

The hardest chapters were the ones starting with Snape's past, Harry's discover of the truth, his decision to face death and his time in the afterlife, or whatever space that was. As I predicted, I cried my eyes out. (Hence the tissues) And at some point, when Harry had to reveal himself to Voldemort - because he was wearing the cloak - I put both of my hands on my mouth to prevent a scream. I literally could not deal with that.

Harry, you wonderful boy. You brave, brave man. Thank you for all the feelings.

kikimay: (Buffy's smile)
... And I'm back from the holidays!

I spent a week at the beach, it was really nice and I felt relaxed most of the time so I did enjoy it. I do love the sea. This time, strangely, it rained for three afternoons straight. Also the water was really, really warm even in the mornings. I think that climate change is involved and I hope that we'll find a way to save the Mediterranean sea (And also the people who constantly die there. That would be nice). It's such a beautiful place and for the first time it seemed really obvious that it is in serious danger.

I really wish I could take one more bath and enjoy the sun. I'm tanned! And I have photos to prove that. (And the fact that for three whole afternoons the sky was grey!)

I'm also very pleased to discover that I was nominated to [ profile] wicked_awards and SunnyD awards. THANKS SO MUCH, GUYS! <3 <3 <3 I'm so happy that you liked the stories (The nominated fics are "Beautiful Butterflies", two times, and "After The Fall". They are also favorites of mine and I enormously enjoy to write about Dru and I ship Spuffel so much!)

Here's the pretty buttons.

Thank you, really.

I also continued my HP reading marathon and I finished "HP and the Half-Blood Prince" and I've started "The Deathly Hallows". I'm seriously stopping every three words now because of feelings. And I already felt the tears coming a couple of times, especially when Harry found Lily's letter to Sirius.

It's gonna be great, guys. I think I'm going to handle the angst just like a mature, rational, adult person.

I just have so many feelings about these books and about Harry my bby boy. I actually took notes to talk about the most important things in "The Half-Blood Prince".

Yes, I'm a nerd )
kikimay: (Expecto Patronum)
I can't believe that there are only two books left and the story will be over.

Maybe I'm gonna slow down and wait a bit more to start the sixth volume. (I wanted to be super-fast because these days I'm enjoying summer and I have a lot of free time on my hands so I can't read for fun) I'm also super-curious and emotionally invested so I can't stop myself. I promise nothing, but I wish I could enjoy this story as much as I can.

This story is so compelling! )
kikimay: (The ancient and noble house of)
Hi guys, how are you?

I'm enjoying Summer afternoons and eating way too much these days. I'm also reading the Harry Potter saga for the first time (I watched the movies only two years ago) and I'm posting these kind-of reviews to talk about the characters, my first impressions and stuff. Because *I have so many feelings*.

Today I'm posting the commentary about the first part of "HP and the Order of the Phoenix", because I'm still in the middle of the book and I already have so many thoughts about it so I need to bother you.

It's also DanRad's birthday! I'm developing such a crush on him. He's cute and funny and has totally sexy body hair. I can't wait to see his new movie and fangirl like a mad.

But anyway

HP and the Order of the Phoenix - part I )
kikimay: (Expecto Patronum)
And the "Kiki reads HP" saga continues. I finished the fourth book and now I have to read the fifth. Guys, I'm drowing in the feels already, I don't know if that's normal.

At first I lol'd but then ... )
kikimay: (Buffy's smile)
Who just finished "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban"? Who did that?

Me! :D It's really late here and I just finished the third book of the series. Of course I also read the second book, "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets" yesterday. This saga is really cool and is such a pleasure to read! You just want to go on and on, without getting bored. Really awesome, Rowling.

So here some really lame first impressions because it's too late to function and I also don't have interesting ideas on my own.

Spoilers? )
kikimay: (Buffy's smile)

Guys, guys, GUYS! I finally read my first Harry Potter book, yay! *throws confetti at self*

I know, I know! I'm definitely late to the party and I'm an adult now and the saga starts with a book that's really for kids, but I FUCKING LOVED IT and it was so amusing and the worldbuilding is so interesting! I can't wait to read the second one! I'm really curious to see the differences between the books and the movies and I loved the first one so I'm motivated to continue. Yeah, I'm giggly because funny books make me happy.

I'd like to share few superficial impressions about the first book, because I don't know if I can say something original and I'm sure you're much more familiar with the saga and have more insights on the characters and the plot, but anyway.

I loved ALL THE CHARACTERS! I love everyone in this bar! X3 From Harry to Hermione, Ron, Minerva ... even Severus, who seems terrible from Harry's POV and Draco who is a little shit. They are reliable characters, rounded and well-written and they are interesting. Severus Snape, for example, gives off this vibe of ambiguity about him and you want to know more about him and about his past with Harry's dad and why he's so hostile to Harry. He's interesting after you discover that he's not the Big Bad of the first book.

Harry's aunt and uncle are disgusting and gross, but they are such cartoonish villains in a way. They reminded me of Matilda's parents and Harry's kinda like Matilda herself: the strangest little kit who finds friends and true family at school. You go, Harry! He's such a sassy little guy and I like the fact that he's basically clueless about everything but he doesn't take that bad. He's cool beans, really. His only true pain is related to the loss of his parents, poor baby. (How can his own aunt be so cruel to her sister's son? Ugh)

Ron is SO SMART! I remember that in the movies he was kinda like the dumb sidekick and we laughed because of his funny faces. But really, he doesn't seem that scared of everything and he even punches Draco in the face (You go, Ronald!) Neville is much more the terrified bullied little guy, while Ron seems to be more confident. He just feels inferior because of his older brothers and I'm so happy that, in the end, he sees his value recognized by Dumbledore. That was amazing.

Can you explain me why Dumbledore is a Gryff? So far he seems very clever, manipulative and calculating. I'm impressed by his way to test Harry and prepare his future army. It was very smart. Why he's not a Slytherin or a Ravenclaw, since those seem the houses for the cunning/wise guys? Anyway I liked him and I can see why Harry is so attracted to him (Although a part of me is sad because Harry doesn't know what it feels to be loved and appreciated without being used and he was the guy who left him in an abusive home but he's so eager for an older parental figure. Poor baby!)

McGonagall is an absolute QUEEN and I'm so happy that she's played by Maggie Smith in the movies, because I love Maggie Smith. Hagrid is such a total sweetheart! He's so loving and he would have been a much more fit guardian to Harry and I'm sure he would have showered him with all his love and care and Harry would have known what it feels to be loved. Aaaww. Hermione is adorable.

Draco is such a little shit! OMG XD He's even pathetic at times, because he's such a spoiled, immature child, but the first meeting with Harry was cute and they hate each others so much: THE SOLID FOUNDATION OF EVERY SUCCESSFUL OTP. I'm into it! *w*

Really, I couldn't ship Draco with Neville because it would seem so unfair to poor Neville who really suffers a lot for Draco's cruelty, but Harry is so into the game. He's like: yeah, bitch, let me show you why I'm better than U! And of course Draco is livid because of that. Amusing and it builds the tension for when they are grown up.

Loved the shopping for the wand, Snape's first lesson and the Quidditch first match! The scene with Harry in front of the mirror made me sad and also when Dumbledore went to see wounded Harry. Baby!

On a side note, do you know that in the original Italian translation they translated Ravenclaw with "Pecoranera" (Blacksheep)? What the hell?! XD I'm happy they changed it later.

(Btw I'm also watching S2 of True Detective and eventually I'll make a post about it)

(Also my beta is out of town, so I wrote another ficlet but it won't be published until 16 of July. I didn't forget the challenge! Hope you'll wait)


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